i cannot conquer me

silence is golden is what the happy say to control the sad
it's what elevates them and crushes the proud

my old hurts won't walk away
singing songs of their old dreams
my broken soul won't mend
reciting stories to my slivered sanity

take this from me
my battered panoply
I am defenceless anyhow
and drunk on stubborn sensitivity

I have slain the dragons of my discontent
and fought the foes of my pleasure
I've won great battles and earned the title
of Keeper of my Happiness

But they misinform when they
withhold the biggest creature of them all
and I fail as hero and Keeper
because i cannot conquer me