A Double B-Day...

Happy B-Day to my soulmate, Doo. Ya know Plato's "apple cleft in two" theory (thing)??? He's my other half. Have a good one, Doo!

Oh, and on that note HAPPY B-DAY TO MY BEAUTIFUL SELF. I am officially Queen for the Day. And it's my B-Day so I can cry if I want to. So there. Bite Me.

It feels good to still be breathing...

Wahoooo!!!!

So my big bro Phil came through and got tickets (free I hope) for me for Blue Rodeo for my birthday! So I'm off to TO to party up my birthday with my bros!! Should be some good times.

Can't believe my b-day is only 2 days away...
I will officially be turning 21...AgAiN!!!!!!
None of this 22 stuff! Sigh, I'm gettin' so old - and yet I'm still so young and fiesty!!!
Sweet Youth. Time to have some fun. No sleeping allowed...interferes too much with the fun.

See you all on the other side when I get back.

Frou Frou, "Let Go"

Drink up baby down
Are you in or are you out?
Leave your things behind
'Cause it's all going off without you
Excuse me too busy you're writing a tragedy
These mess-ups
Your bubble-wrap
When you've no idea what you're like

So, let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown

It gains the more it gives
And then advances with the form
So, honey, back for more
Can't you see that all the stuff's essential?
Such boundless pleasure
We've no time for later
Now you can wait
You roll your eyes
We've twenty seconds to comply

So, let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's al right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown

A Dream or a Vision???

After the events of the last year of my life I can definitely say that dreams do come true but, let me add, that sometimes dreams turn into nighmares. So be careful what you wish for.

Last night around 3 am when I was drifting into sleep I got an idea...Maybe it came from having listened to Sam Roberts earlier, but I got an idea about how to catch "the train for my salvation" which is "departing from the station." OK. Hear me out. Come April, I will jump out of a plane. You heard me. I've already had a near-death experience this year so it doesn't feel like that much of a risk. But, JH, will you maybe come with me???? PlEaSe?? Or at least hold my hand on the way there! hee hee. I'm so terrified. I MuSt do it.

Dream sweetly everyone ;)

It was like something from a movie...

Yesterday was the last night of calling for the summer at work. The pre-awards consisted of a scavenger hunt/race which had the three teams going around town looking for clues. I was on the blue team...and we ran...and I was in high heels...I am blistered and broken. But we won which means free stuff!! I got some gift certificates, etc, plus partook in some beer and some free food. It was a good night. The funniest was all of us running through the streets. People were shocked to see us (some in strange costumes; myself in a jean mini and high heels) running around. We kept hearing comments that it looked like we were in a music video or something cause we looked so strange. Strange is good. I was like Sarah Jessica Parker runnin' around on Sex and the City...only my shoes cost 40 bucks not 400...and our town ain't as grand as NY. But is was pretty freakin' awesome anyways.

The End is Near...

September is approachin'. So the summer is ending -not that it's been much of a summer. Great things are ahead in the future. Soon the worry will be not a lack of entertainment but an excess of entertainment...

So many things about the future on my mind...To get my TESL or not to get it...Grad School??? Trips??? What do I want next? I've gone after so many goals that I'm forgetting to keep making them...Right...

Was really upset for a long time that I wasn't overseas or somewhere exciting this summer...But now I'm just glad that September is approaching and the socializing will commence. I just wanna have some fun and zone out for a little while. It's too early for the philosophical, life-altering trip overseas yet. I still haven't finished tailoring all of the alterations that I made to my life this year. My time will come. This year just wasn't my year. But it happened for a reason. I know that. Hmmm...But what reason???

I think some people were put on this earth to constantly challenge us and to make us better people. It was the year of challenges which also makes it the year of growth. Ain't it funny that we think that once we become adults that we've stopped growing??? So many people settle down and become stagnant and forget that they've got so much growing to do. I wanna keep growing and learning. I want to absorb the world and take it all in like taking the deepest breath of air on a crisp morning...

Let the Music Heal Your Soul...

Spent the weekend in TO with my bros. I'm in love with the city now and am in awe of all it has to offer. Finally saw my lover Sam Roberts in concert...bloody fuckin' awesome. Had some good times in TO...went to bed when the sun was comin' up Fri night. Sam Roberts/Sloan, etc, were awesome! Sooo happy that I finally went. Music is my boyfriend, my lover, my soulmate...sigh...